If you read last week’s blog, I mentioned that most of the I am pretty darn convinced that I have this life thing down pat. I like to have all my ducks waiting in the wings to fall into their perfect little rows. Yet no matter how cute my planner looks each month, God seems to have his whiteout handy to rearrange all my perfectly planned days.
Recently, I feel like God must have stocked up on His whiteout for my life. This past year our family went through a complete life upheaval with so many unexpected twists and turns that a rollercoaster would blush. At one point we found ourselves steps away from homelessness and bankruptcy and our only hope was that God’s plan was bigger than ours.
Never in my adult life had I felt so completely out of control and so angry at God. I felt allllllll the angry feelings, but God never once faltered on His promises to us. Now, left up to me, our lives would have never reached the rock bottom that they did. Yet, if it wasn’t for those moments of rock bottom and redemption, our hearts would neither be as humble nor as unwavering in our devotions to God’s plans for our lives as they are now.
Right now in my women’s bible study we are going through Lisa Terkeurst’s book “It’s Not Supposed to be This Way”. (It you are dealing with disappointment in any form, I encourage you to read it.)
This quote really hit home with me this week:
Don’t assume what a good God should do.Lisa Terkeurst
Do y’all ever assume that you know what God should do to fix your problems? Is it money? A better living situation? Children? A new job? I think I could write lists up on lists of the solutions I have handy for God. In fact, if He wanted I could even color code them for Him and add cute stickers. And yet…somehow I get the feeling He doesn’t need my input.
Let’s go back to a verse from last weeks blog:
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.Jeremiah 29:11
The point is this friends: HE ALREADY KNOWS HOW TO “FIX” YOUR PROBLEMS, and as tough as it is to swallow sometimes, His plans are most likely NOT your plans. You may have to sit in your pit for longer than what seems fair…in order to become the person He needs you to be…in order for you to walk the road that He has prepared for you.
Let me say that again and I want you to really let it sink it:
You may have to sit in your pit for longer than what seems fair…in order to become the person He needs you to be…in order for you to walk the road that He has prepared for you.
My point is this ladies, none of us can predict our future with pinpoint accuracy. Sure, we can use our gifts and talents to aim our arrows towards our goals, but if God wants us to veer toward another target altogether sometimes we have to grow as people to even come close to hitting it.
Without walking through situations that seem impossible we don’t ever know what is like to truly need a savior.
I often hear people tell me “I don’t know if I couldn’t ever have faith like that.” Yet do you know how you get “faith like that”? Complete brokenness in the deepest pits. Flowers only bloom in the valleys and we only truly need His light when we are buried in the deepest of pits.
Sometimes, unless you allow yourself to surrender to the pits and trust that God will get you out at just the perfect moment you will never grow your faith, your humility, or your reliance on Him as your savior.
My prayer for you all this week is this:
When you find yourself trudging through situations that you never thought you would find yourself in, I pray that you would back away from the angry Facebook rants, pocket your “hustle”, and quit assuming what a good God should do. Let whatever pit you are in chip off your self-reliance, anger and shame. He WILL redeem your circumstances. It may not look like you want it to or come at a convenient time, but it WILL come and when it does I pray that you will be there to meet it as the person He is longing to shape you to be.